Thoughts before leaving home...

The last few days have been pretty emotional for me...though ive tried not to show it.  I've just been thinking about leaving home and all the things that I will be "leaving."  It just that over the last 4 months, I've relied on a lot of things and people to get me through the hard times.  Not that I haven't relied on God because there is no way I could have made it through all this without Him, but I DO get to "take" Him with me anywhere I go, but other things I cannot.  

First are my parents.  They sacrificed so much for me and served me in so many ways when I felt helpless.  My mom sat with me while I cried many times and always brought home little surprises to help cheer me up.. and my dad did everything he could to make things easier on me...from making my lunch everyday for weeks to building me a lap desk to do my homework in bed.

Next came Chris, the one who slept on the floor of my hospital room and only went home so he could take a nap and come back as soon as he could.  He came to see me almost everyday since i've been home and all it took was a hug from him to make all the bad parts of my day go away.  He has shown his love for me in so many ways and I hate the thought of being even just 50 miles away from him.

Then there's suki...I haven't been so attached to a pet since my cat, Sassy, that we got when I was maybe 6 or 7 years old.  Suki would nap all day with me, amuse me when i was bored, cock her little head when i talked to her as if she were really listening, and just sit on my lap and watch a movie with me so i didnt feel so alone.  I actually get very sad when i think about not having that adorable little puppy around all the time.

And every sunday, I loved going to church.  Seeing everyone so excited to see me and every step of my progress and hearing how many people had been praying for me..and still are...was such an encouragement.  I will definitely miss going to Grace every sunday.

But on the other hand...im so excited to be living with three wonderful ladies in our newly painted, beautiful little house, right across from two other friends whom i have known for years.  I'm also excited to continue with school and feel like I'm actually getting somewhere!